Broodiness

When I was visiting Manchester last August, one of my friends caught me looking at a young couple with their toddler and baby. He called me out, "Why are you being so broody?!" At the time, I didn't know what that word was so he informed me and I said, "O yea, that's a good description of me."

Anyways time passed since then. I wasn't feeling in a rush to have my own kids until this week working in the newborn nursery. AHHHHHH. My natural maternal instincts/desires are on over-drive. I love them. And I want one. And I'm learning all these things like "creating a 'fourth trimester'" and "recreating the womb" and its all amazing.

I can't get over this. I love when a baby's eyes are open (I have a thing with eyes clearly--see last post). And I love when a baby sucks on my finger (trying to quiet them while we get an EKG). How then does a mother feel breastfeeding his child? I can't even imagine. Being the source of everything for .....(what is a good description of what I'm trying to say?).

I feel like I'm "stuck" right now in my life. I so badly want to move forward and do things like get married, have a home, have kids...but I know God has His amazing plan for me, He knows what I want more than I even do.